Wednesday, July 9, 2014

Listening to God...or not!

Why is it so difficult to listen to God?

It says in the Bible that we need to refrain from doing things on our own but rather listen to God. What is God going to say? What is He going to do about my situation I find myself in?
Sometimes I think that we don’t listen because if its Gods that’s telling us, we have to tell Him one of two things:
“Sorry, I don’t think that’s right” – and flatly disregard Gods talking   OR
“Hey, You are right” – and follow and trust in Gods way!

Frankly I am scared to think what Gods answer will be. Most of the time its not going to be the answer that I want. Its all about me and what I want to do. God is going to dampen my decision because what I am about to do is not the “Correct Christian thing to do”.

So I disregard Him. I do my own thing. I act out what I thought was correct. In the moment, I feel great! I have made my point. Problem here is, that moments don’t last forever. It’s the long time where it becomes a problem and only after awhile do I realize that I made a wrong decisions or acted without Gods advice.

I guess, by default, humans are “in the moment” creatures. Everything must happen now and in my way!

It says in the Bible that if we listen to God, He will have our back….but if we ignore Him when He was trying to tell us something – He will leave us to deal with the consequences ourselves.
SO how do I actually listen to God. I close my eyes and do what? I feel things are being told to me, I come up with thoughts but how do I know if its just my mind rolling around or if its God actually talking to me?

The force of evil is also in your mind and it is at war with you. Evil is always connected to a feeling of fear. God is connected to a feeling of peace. Satan is the accuser. God is the comforter. Evil seduces you into breaking God's law and then shames you for what you did. Evil knows where you are vulnerable. If you are afraid of being poor, evil will tempt you with money. If you have sexual vulnerabilities, evil will tempt you sexually. Satan says you are stupid, ugly, no good, broken, worthless and unlovable. The goal of the Devil is to destroy your relationship with God. Evil never wants you to communicate with God. It will laugh at you as you read these words.

One thing about Gods voice is that it will never contradict scripture (Which is Gods voice). This is why we should know scripture very well so e will always know whether Satan is trying to confuse you. Often God will talk through His scripture.

Right, so when do I do this. My mind is continually running around things of the day, thoughts of work, deadlines, family, money etc. How does God fit into this?
Well, I really don’t know…..Today, I am really confused. I feel deserted and it feels like everything that I once knew is gone? Weird…Have you thought this before?

Its like all the decisions I am making are my own, like I have never really understood listening to God and if He speaks to me, well then, I am really lucky?

What are your thoughts?

Wednesday, May 14, 2014

The Killer Grudge!

The Grudge!
This word is probably one of the most destructive words in history.
I can talk from personal experience!

I often think to myself, will God forgive me continually for the bad things that I do and the bad thoughts that I have, continually, over and over?

I often believe that I have angered God so much that He has just given up on me and pushed me aside and now thinks "well, He has just passed the sinning threshold - now its over".

I just don't know what the problems are. I don't know how to deal with them. But the problem is, Satan loves these thoughts, because He makes you think that God has given up on you and now, you are on your own.
This becomes a big spiralling ball which gets bigger and bigger daily, and you hold more grudges, for longer and it goes on and on.....
This is a very personal subject for me and I write this from personal experience, which I struggle with on a daily basis.

I hold grudges, all the time! I think that god cant forgive me, so I cant forgive others.

The above statement is the crux of this letter. How can I forgive if I don't 'feel' forgiven?
It often feels good to hold a grudge against another person, because its what I know to do. It makes me feel like I am dealing with the situation in the way that I know best and then I write that person out of my life! Yay, I have beaten my thoughts....I have made a decision that I believe will be for the better. I believe that I don't need people like that around me so I "remove" them..

But is this for the better? Does this help?

In the short term it does! It makes me feel secure. It makes me feel strong (feelings) and it makes me feel confident.
But this is short term. The ball then starts to roll. Satan starts to work in your life and add onto these thoughts. Satan starts to make you think you don't need people like that in your life.
The problem then also is that you have so much "un-forgiveness" in your heart, that you don't believe that God has forgiven you! And because hasn't forgiven you, you cannot forgive others!

"But I just cannot seem to forgive or be merciful towards those who have wronged me! Now what?" That is because you don't truly believe that God is truly prepared to forgive you, and be merciful towards you. You cannot continue to give something that you are unable to receive.

Satan makes you believe that it is impossible to receive Gods mercy, because you cannot have mercy for others, and the other way round. (This is the rolling ball I believe starts rolling).

We are told to forgive others 70 x 7 times. Jesus was saying, basically, that we should never stop forgiving, even if it is the same person sinning against you all the time.

Then came Peter to him, and said, Lord, how oft shall my brother sin against me, and I forgive him? till seven times? Jesus saith unto him, I say not unto thee, Until seven times: but, Until seventy times seven.

Matthew 18:21-22

I have, for a very long time now, struggled with grudges. I build walls around myself to try and protect myself and my feelings from being effected or hurt. I am now starting to realise that it is those same walls that are making me think that God is so angry with me, that He cannot forgive me. (Satan's handiwork)

These same walls are blocking the Holy Spirit from entering into our lives, to heal our hurt. These same walls that we build to protect ourselves, eventually cause our demise.

I try and try to be forgiving, but I just cant. Its like it is impossible. Many times, I am not confident in my relationship with God, and this makes me build more walls around me.

Have you ever had this feeling or experience?

To summarise, what is holding back the healing of our emotional wounds, is the fact that Satan has convinced us that we have messed up so many times, that God no longer desired to forgive or be merciful towards us. Satan wants us to feel like we could forgive others, but God would still be disappointed or angry with us. That is as far from the truth as it gets - this completely contradicts what God's Word tells us about how He delights in being merciful, and promises to forgive those who are forgiving, and be merciful towards those who are merciful towards others. God does not want to even remember our sins... He even wants them blotted out of His own mind!

Holding grudges and building walls is very damaging to your soul.

I have alot of work to do personally, to break down my walls and release my grudges. I know, that with the help of the Holy Spirit, I will be able to do this.

Let me leave you with this:

Don't tear your clothing in your grief; instead, tear your hearts." Return to the Lord your God, for he is gracious and merciful. He is not easily angered. He is filled with kindness and is eager not to punish you.
Joel 2:13 (NLT)

Bless You

Tuesday, May 13, 2014

Gods Light

I was watching a series called 'Cosmos' the other day and at the beginning of the first episode, the narrator goes on about planets and space and just big it all is.
Our little earth is so small compared to just a planet like Saturn or Jupiter and there are so many stars around that we don't see, shining bright. These planets are so far from each other, we are talking millions of miles away from each other.

And then, the narrator takes us further out an shows just our galaxy. Our galaxy consists of all these planets and stars an all sorts of beautiful creations. As He goes further into 'space', our galaxy becomes smaller and smaller, and then another galaxy pops onto the screen, one just like ours, also in in its own - has millions of stars and planets. And as the go further and further away, these galaxies start appearing on the screen, hundreds of them, now so many that each of them look like stars themselves.

Our universe is so vast! We dot know where it ends.
But what struck me in this programme, is the narrator said something which explained that we don't even know what is further out  there, because we haven't been around long enough on earth to see the light of these objects in space even reach us.
Everything in space is measured in light years (The distance it takes light to travel in one year ie: 9,460,528,400,000 kilometres per year).
Everyday, new objects and stars appear to us on earth all of a sudden as their light reaches us. They are trillions and trillions of miles away, and one day, their light just appears and we give it a name.

Makes me wonder...One day, the un-imaginable light of this huge source will reach us. A light that is so crystal clear and bright that we wont be able to even look at it with our 'earthly eyes'.
Right now, that light is travelling at thousands of kilometers per hour to get to us, and when it reaches us, our world (as we know it) will change forever.
This light is the light of God. So bright, so beautiful! It will reach us - and consume our world today!
I look forward to this day, when the light of God shines on us, and the entire universe (of which we know little about) will be displayed!

Jesus - We wait for your second beautiful appearance!


Monday, March 31, 2014

God Loves Us!

I have attached a video which somehow just shows me how God loves us.

We are ridiculed because of our Father, People tell us we are crazy.

We are killed because of our Father. Our family members in other countries or been mutilated because of their belief in their Father.

Often with all of this going on, we turn against God. We turn our back and shout at Him because we don’t get our own way. We shout at Him because He is not the WE want Him to be.

Some of us are embarrassed by our Father.

But we cannot understand how God loves us. We don’t comprehend how our Father will do anything for us. His Blood is in us, He created us.

He wants us to be in a relationship with Him, We wants us to talk to Him, not be embarrassed by Him, not ignore Him but rather to share what we are upset about, Talk to Him about everything.

The difference between this video and our Father, is that our Father is perfect. Us Humans, tend to see people with deformities, like in this video, as weird and mostly don’t want them around us because they embarras us.

God deserves our time, He deserves our interest and He deserves our love.

Bless you as you watch this video.

Thursday, February 27, 2014

The Power of Words

How easy is it to "Do the Word?"

Do you say things that you regret afterwards?   Or sometimes don't?

You know, I think I can safely say that we all do this. We talk far too quickly, spraying words out far too loosely, even before our brain has had time to think what consequence they may have. And then, The damage is done. It cant be taken back.
Then our brains kick in and say "ooops, look what you've done!"

Lets look at Matthew 12:36-37.
“But I say unto you, That every idle word that men shall speak, they shall give account thereof in the day of judgment. For by thy words thou shalt be justified, and by thy words thou shalt be condemned.”

This is very scary. I can imagine myself already taking up all of Gods time with all the things I have said and meant and things that I have said and don't mean. Nevermind anybody else.
But what does this mean.
Well lets look at the word 'idle' in this verse. It basically means - words that you say that you don't believe. You could use these when you exaggerate something or add meat to a story you are telling someone, but some of the things you say, you actually don't believe in yourself.
Take this statement: "I would kill for an ice-cream!"
You obviously don't mean that you would kill someone, its just a word that expresses your feelings right?
Well yes, but its an idle word.
Most people would say, "but this is just a manner of talking or expressing something".
It is, but where does it end?
Everytime you say things that you don't really mean, it begins to effect your heart.
The only reason why we haven't killed someone for an ice cream yet, is because we don't believe in our heart what we are saying.

Our words or everything. This very world was created using words. Jesus spoke creation into being. This was a positive thought, positive words and ending up in a positive action.
The same happens negatively. Talk negative, think negative, do negative!
If we believe we are going to be sick or if we believe that we will always be poor, and then confess that with our mouths, we will get what we believe.
Thank God for faith!
But words need to be believed as well. We can talk many idle words, but we are called to believe in what we say.
So if we really believe that we will kill someone for an icecream, then we will.
Same happens when we pray for healing over someone....
If we do not actually have faith in God and BELIEVE that healing will happen, then it wont happen! We can pray many words for hours and hours, and nothing will happen - but it is because don't believe that it will be done!

Every person on this earth has been given an equal measure of faith. But it is what we do with that faith what makes it count. Some people just do a better job of using the faith they have received from God.

Lets see Romans 12:3:
“For I say, through the grace given unto me, to every man that is among you, not to think of himself more highly than he ought to think; but to think soberly, according as God hath dealt to every man the measure of faith”

Negative words are a killer. They make your heart and your thoughts numb over time. Slowly they start 'making' your heart change in what it was created to believe and you become a negative person, spreading negativity, no faith, a feeling of no hope and ultimately death in the power of the tongue.

Galatians 2:20:
........Christ is in me. I am a new creation.....

Its like I am talking about myself here, but if you have nothing positive to say, don't say it.
Don't get hung up by negative words and start paying attention to what we say!

Wednesday, January 8, 2014

Suffering and Sadness turns to Happiness

We all know someone who has gone through real tough time, suffering or long term sickness and the general question we ask ourselves is WHY?
Why does God allow this?
Well, I don't know.
I do know that God doesn't bring suffering and sickness to anyone as this is not the God I know.
I also know that through suffering and sickness, many positives can be created. This could be influences on people (possibly those close to the sick person). It could also be when that persons life ends.
Why does it have to be through suffering though? No one knows!

Anyway, I attended a funeral today. It was of a lady I knew for around 6 years. this lady is the mother of a friend of mine. She was a beautiful woman! Looking at the photos of her at the funeral just confirms this.
8 years ago and before, this lady was up and running. She was supporting a house, kids and husband. She used to run a successful business and well known. Generally, things were good.
Unbeknown to her, she had an inner (lets call it a disease/sickness for now as I am not sure of the correct term) of the brain. This caused her to slow down in life and eventually to her death a week ago.
I saw this woman go from being free, successful and beautiful to being trapped within herself. She was a literally a perfect brain inside of a body that couldn't do anything. She had to be helped with everything. She couldn't move, sleep, eat, drive...nothing!
She was trapped in herself.
This beautiful was completely at the mercy of her amazing husband to help her do everything.
I couldn't imagine being stuck where I couldn't do anything for myself.

With her being in this situation, it obviously caused a lot of hurt within the family. It led them to ask many questions, asking God WHY?
I think deep down, the family were praying for her to pass away and finally be at peace and rest.
She did.
At the funeral today (in a different language so I couldn't be apart of the singing), I just closed my eyes and this picture came to mind.
I saw her walking along a path, sandy and thin through a wide open field of grass. (She hasn't walked for years). In front of her was our Lord Jesus standing there, calling her. Arms wide open he stood. In the grass on each side of her were her family standing. Some crying and some watching.
What an image! I can just imagine what was going through her mind then. Seeing her Father in front of her calling her to come and spend eternal life with Him in His place. A place which has a huge mansion waiting for her. She was smiling, She was Happy and loving it!
Sadness on the outskirts of her path, but a path that she was walking on leading to eternal happiness, love and peace.
Her period of suffering has come to an end and her eternal infinite life ahead.

Didn't our Father say to us that He will waiting for us with open arms?
I know that its often not a consolation to family members on earth to say that their recently passed parent is happy now, but I know that if the family know Jesus, they know what He promised us in His Word.
This earth is our temporary residence. Its a staging area before our next life.
Our choice of where we go in the next life is up to us. Make the right one!

I write this in memory of a special lady, mother, wife and a person who influenced and touched me (and she didn't even know that she did).
Rest in Peace Merlyn Van Der Merwe....

Revelation 21:4 He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.”

John 14:1-3Let not your heart be troubled; believe in God, believe also in Me. in My Father’s house are many mansions

Monday, January 6, 2014

Lukes Gospel - Introduction

I find Luke's gospel very thorough. I am studying at the moment and I find that his gospel tells better of the life of Christ than any of the other gospels. Towards the end of Luke, He explains how the disciples were sent out and heal, love, make peace and bring joy.

Did you know:
  • Luke based His gospel on eye-witnesses and evidence given to him. He wasn't around at the time when Jesus roamed the earth. These eye-witnesses being disciples and people that experienced first hand this man called Jesus and even saw and spoke to Him during His life on earth and after His resurrection.
  • Luke was written around AD 62
  • Luke also explains that His gospel is based on truth and that He has carefully put it together after much investigation with key witnesses.
But what grabs my attention even more so, is right at the beginning of His gospel in Luke 1 verse 1.
Many have undertaken to draw up an account of the things that have been fulfilled among us...

Luke tells us that there were many people trying to write about this man called Jesus. They were all wanting to tell others about what Jesus did and how amazing He was. The miracles He did were something never seen before. Of course you would want to write about this man.
The problem with a lot of these so-called writings is that they have been lost through time (or not found), and this is why Luke wanted to have his version based on truth and evidence so that He could portray many of these writings together into one "story".

Jesus must have been one amazing guy to have created such a stir and frenzy.

As I go through the gospel, I will blog about some of the detail I pick up and I would love to have your opinion as well.