A story of Hope...
I have been so excited to write about this since yesterday
when it all came to a conclusion. It is a personal story about 2 great people
that I have known for the last few weeks. It’s a story of love and healing and
how the Holy Spirit wrapped it all up. It was also a story of hope and I was
personally there to witness this whole thing unfold and due to the love of Jesus,
it worked out just perfect.
I am in awe at the work of Jesus Christ, our Lord who does
great things.
Two people whom I had met a few weeks ago at the alpha course
that we run at our church, Lets name them Jared and Sally for confidentiality
sake , seemed very apprehensive and quiet from the beginning. Whilst Sally has often
said a word or two to the rest of the small group, Jared would be very shy and
quiet. Jared said at the beginning that he is looking for something more. He
believed that God has somehow let go and that He was alone. Why would God want
a relationship and Jared was looking for more and a way to get back into the
Christian life.
Jared and Sally or both divorced, each with their own
children, and they are now together and seem very happy and good for each other.
But for me, there was just something not right. It seemed that Jared was
anxious or had a lot of hurt from previous situations in his life, as a lot of
us do. It seemed that Jared was carrying these hurts with him, but we didn’t know.
As weeks went by, we all got to know each other much better
and everyone started opening up a little about their lives.
We all went on the alpha camp this past weekend. The camp is
in a beautiful part of the countryside.
We learn a lot about the Holy Spirit on this weekend, Who He
is, What He does and How the Holy Spirit can fill us. When a group of people go
away together, you tend to find out a lot more about them.
Jared and Sally came on the weekend and brought there kids
as well. Jared was still very quiet on the weekend. We came to a time of
ministry on Saturday where people can be ministered to, prayed for and spend
time with God in a peaceful and relaxed environment. In this time, often people
break down, cry, are slain in the Spirit or just sit in the peace of the Holy
Spirit. Jared started with tears but very quiet. When asked if He wanted
prayer, He opted for it and it came out that He blames himself for a lot of
past hurts and how they have effected the relationship between him and his
daughter. He blamed himself for what he has possibly done to his daughter
emotionally. He came to a time where he wanted to take his life because the
past hurts were eating at him. They were stuck inside his heart, blocked in and
being used by satan as a tool to keep on blaming himself. He couldn’t release
the hurt. There was sever pain there and He didn’t how to deal with it. In this
session, He sat and cried a little, closed his eyes and prayed.
We don’t know what happened. Jared didn’t tell anyone. It
was personal stuff after all and it was between him and God.
We prayed for Jared and Sally. We prayed for their blockages
and hurts to be pulled down and that God would remove them.
Ministry time over, Saturday night came…We all had a bunch
of fun together, Jared was laughing and enjoying himself with the others and
all seemed well.
Sunday morning we got together in groups again, asking how
everything was going, what anyone thought and how they managed in the ministry
session the previous day. Some of the people said it was great, some said
nothing, Jared and Sally said they enjoyed it but nothing changed for them. It
was then that I saw the pain in Jared’s face. It was a look that I have never
seen before in a anyone. It was like you could see so much pain in his eyes and
that it was getting the better of him. Pain was winning!
A few of us went aside and prayed again for our group, but
specifically for Jared and Sally. We prayed that Jared could somehow release
all the pain and hurt he was experiencing and that God would remove the
blockages and walls that satan was building up in his heart.
After our group session, we had another time of ministry. We
again went to Jared and asked him if he wanted to pray or talk. We prayed
together, Jared started crying a lot. Him and Sally were hugging, crying
together and just really praying to God for help….. But nothing!
We were asking questions in our minds….Why God? What are we
doing wrong? We have been praying for
Jared so much in the last few days and nothing had changed. Jared was not
feeling different, he still felt pain, he still felt the pain of a broken
relationship with his daughter. We told him that God will work in his life, but
I wanted to know why nothing had changed yet??? Why God, Why?
We just couldn’t get a breakthough….
As the weekend drew to a closure, we had a time of feedback
where people that experienced the love of God through His Spirit, poured into
their hearts and felt a renewing of their minds. A few people came up, spoke
about their experiences and it brought many to tears.
Right at the end, a young girl walked up to the stage, just
as some people were started to get up and leave…it was Jared's daughter. We were
all so shocked because we had hardly seen her that weekend. Her and her dad hadn’t
got on too well on the weekend and this also difficult for Jared to handle.
She started off saying how angry she was, how she didn’t want
to come on the weekend and she was forced by her dad and we were getting a
little scared how this was going to end up because everyone was in good spirits
from hearing all the good stories from others.
And then the bomb dropped. She just started crying. She
sobbed ad while she was sobbing she was trying to talk on the microphone. She apologized
to her dad for everything, she told how she loved him so much and how she
regretted all the ugly things that she had said. I couldn’t believe my eyes. I
just lost my emotions and cried and half the hall was in tears. No-one out of
the 186 people in the hall knew Jared and his hurt except for a few in our
group. At that stage I just turned around and grabbed Jared's hand, He was
beside himself. He and Sally were crying so much. He had never heard those
words from his daughter, He couldn’t believe it…..It couldn’t have come at a
better time!
We all jumped out of our seats and got into a group hug with
Jared, Sally, His daughter and the rest of our group. What an ending! Praise
God! Praise God! Praise God! Everyone was crying tears of happiness!
As I write this, I feel a tear fall from my eye because its
one of those stories that just brings so much thought into my mind. Tears of
pain, sadness and hurt were changed into tears of ecstatic happiness, tears of
love and tears of a beautiful re-beginning of a relationship between a father
and daughter.
Who are we to expect God to act in our time. Here we were questioning God about why He was doing
anything, and it was all planned already. It happens in Gods time.
God loves us, He wants everything good for us. He made us.
All we need to do is love and trust Him as our dad and nothing will be impossible.
Praise God for His love, Praise God for what He did
yesterday and Praise God for being a faithful God and a Dad to look up to.
Amen to a renewed relationship.
Where'd you go? It's Dec 14th and no new blog :( Haven't read from you in a while. Hope all is well. Praying for you. Chris (Nigeria).
ReplyDeleteHey Chris,
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for your comment. I am so sorry that I haven't put anything up. I have intermittent internet connections as well as been extremely busy at work and really time hasn't been on my side as well.
I haven't gone away :).
I am going to start putting up thoughts again from beginning next week.
Bless you and your family through this season.
Cuan