I often do. I can pray and pray, no answer, no message, no "road-sign" that God made me look at and that was His way of giving me a message. NOTHING!
I mean WHAT IS THE POINT?
It makes me feel unimportant to God,it makes feel like I have done such bad things in my life that God is ignoring me or punishing me. He is saying "Well, you don't want to follow my rules, don't come running to me asking for stuff!"
It often makes me feel like 'Is my pray unimportant. Am i asking for things that are way beyond my means or Gods means. Is my prayer worth a response? Maybe if I just had more faith, trust etc....
I mean, WHAT IS THE POINT?
Sometimes I think we, as humans/Christians/whatever, make up stories to make ourselves feel important. What I mean is, if you feel that God isn't answering your prayer/talking to you/giving you a message in some manner, then we create this whole dumbfound story in our minds that we aren't wanted, or Gods doesn't like us, or we have sinned just too much so God doesn't even want to listen to us. All the things I said above...
Do we concoct those stories because we don't get what we want? It feels like we are unworthy of Gods 'presence'.
Then I ask the question, Do we need to ask God things or pray to God about things that only He wants for us. So if I pray for a new job as top manager in a big company and I don't get it, I think to myself maybe it wasn't Gods will. What happens when you pray for a very sick and dying family member. You ask God to heal them, to protect them and keep them from dying...and then 2 days later, they die.
I must admit, I certainly struggle with that idea.
But I think sometimes, what helps me understand this a bit better is the way you look at the outcome. I believe that, and according to the Bible, God is Good. God is not an evil Spirit that floats around and waits to punish us the first second we step out of line. The bible explains how God loves His people and would anything for them. So I can exclude the fact that God would send me in a direction that is bad.
As humans, we have 2 choices. If I pray for protection and to get to a holiday destination safely, and then during the trip we have an accident..then I have 2 ways of looking at the outcome.
- Do I create a story in my head that God didn't hear my prayer, God didn't want to hear my prayer, God led me into this crash/accident because I am a huge sinner and He is punishing me. Lie He is saying "You deserve it!"
- Or do I say to myself, maybe this accident did happen for a reason, because maybe further on, we would have been in a worse accident and one or all of us killed.
The second option is a choice we make. Its also a choice that will make us feel better knowing that God actually protected us on our trip on holiday.
Yes, an accident isn't nice and God could have probably done it another way...But It is our choice to decide what kind of God we are worshipping.
This is a very debatable topic. I would love to hear your opinions on it or experiences.
Bless all of you as you read though this and decide for yourself.